Sleep !

...or lack of it more like, how can one sleep at a time like this, i've decided to write something down instead of kidding myself that i'm gonna be going to sleep, it's just not gonna happen, i'm not here because i wanna keep it to myself and i'm not here because i wanna keep it a secret, that artist round the corner is on my mind ? wonder what he's getting up to ? i'm gonna have to find out one of these days, networking they call it, but not in an internet way, in a real, i can see that you're painting in you're bay window everytime i walk past your place kind of way, can't be all that surely ?, otherwise i would already know about him and his work, am i feeling threatened ?, not at all, i'm just interested, a fellow artist living and working just around the corner, what if he's really successful ? what if he's showing working in gallerys in London and all that, and has an agent ? that's the kind of thing that i'm wanting, you know what they say, "it's not what you know it's who you know", true words indeed, especially in a little town like this where everybody knows everybody else and you're either in there or you're not, but to be in there round here you have to fall into place and do as you're told, don't even try rocking the boat or else you will be thrown overboard and left to float around aimlessly like some sort of driftwood, eventually the driftwood does find it's place though, washed up on some distant coastline like a castaway finding his very own island, yeah i like being different, i like swimming against the tide, i like doing the exact opposite to that which is expected of me, conform they say, abide by the rules that they have set out though generations of no-one answering back, it's not the artists way, not the real artist anyway, i know i'm a real artist because i am always hungry, hungry for food, hungry for success, hungry for materials, hungry for inspiration, hungry for images to work with, i'm always hungry for one thing or another, but like like the castaway and his island, it's all about survival, and i survive, and for as long as i survive i will continue to create great things...